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Back Up Here (Ft. Deluscious)

from Section One by Ngajuana

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Track 8 from Section One

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Rainclouuuuds, following meee, trying to break dooowwwn, all that I be,
Any daay noooow and you’re all gonna see, how these rainclouuuuds are swallowing me.

How did I get here and why did I come? Why did I throw my whole life away, young?
Who is I really and where is I from? So much on my chest, it feels like a ton,
Just trying to get better, so I can be better, can you relate? This is why I don’t sleep ever,
Why I don’t eat ever, why I party never and my connection to society’s severed,
But I can’t leave this place, no, can’t take the easy way,
I, Can’t get away but I, don’t, really don’t need to stay, no,
Why can’t I break the chains? Why, am I stuck in the rain?
How, can I escape the pain? I, need to go stake my claim,
But, I end up right back in the same situation, I’m hating, I’m snappin, I’m losing my patience,
I’m walking in circles, like inmates, I’m pacing, not shook, but I’m shaking, not broken, not breakin’,
But borderline broke and I’m bored of just waiting and sick of not knowing which move to be makin’,
While dudes that be faking, just use it to cake and abuse what has made me a dude that could maybe,
Improve and be saving, the life of another, a daughter, a sister, a wife or a mother,
A brother, a son, or a husband, or father, I keep coming back to what’s keeping me bothered,
I can’t help but dwell on it, this is my cell and the walls keep on closing in on me, I’m telling you,
Nothing and no-one can help me, it’s hell that I’m held in; I’m melting, there’s no way its healthy cuz…

Every time I leave I come right,
Back, back, back, back, back, back, back up here,
I can’t get away, I just come,
Back, back, back, back, back, back, back up here,
I never thought I’d ever see this place again, place again,
The last time that I walked out of the door, door,
But as you see I’ve made the same mistake again, mistake again,
And when it rains, it really fuckin pours.

Rainclouuuuds, following meee, trying to break dooowwwn, all that I be;
Any daay noooow and you’re all gonna see, how these rainclouuuuds are swallowing me.

Whole, they’re swallowing me, whole; they’re all I can see, oh,
They’re swallowing me, soul, seen all of this be-fore,
Got no-where to go, nothing to lose; it’s rock, rock bottom, yo,
And all, all, all I knows I got, got, gotta go,
And nothing I’ve done, has ever been right, I sleep through day and I write through the night,
I fight and I fight, hating the dark, just trying to see if it’s nice in the light,
My sights on a life, I never thought possible, up til the day I said, “Failure is optional”,
Wouldn’t you rather be able to say that you won when success took a shot at you? Uh,
I never quite get that far, rain, rain, go away,
But even if it does, that prolly means that it’ll snow today,
I keep on the grind; I keep trying to find, the words that will finally see me defined,
For so much of my life, I’ve seemed to be blind, but now that I see it, I’m seeing me fine,
I used to see nothing when looking at me, but it seems when I look now I see a design,
I’m sharp as I’ve ever been and getting sharper and willing to bet I don’t see a decline,
I’m leaving, I’m leaving and I’m never coming back, ain’t that sure?
I mean it, I mean it, man, I got the hunger back, famous last words.

credits

from Section One, released June 1, 2012
Lyrics: N. Latella (Ngajuana)

Vocals: N. Latella (Ngajuana)

Production: PnT WorldWyde

Tracked, Mixed and Mastered by: Fresh Kils in The Kilzone

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Ngajuana London, Ontario

A product of London, Ontario, Ngajuana stays active in the Canadian Hip-Hop scene. Ngajuana is a proud founding member of the Canadian collective Dreamsters Union. Boasting nearly 600 songs, 6 albums (and counting), 200 shows and multiple awards won, consistency is no surprise; it's to be expected. ... more

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