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Free mixtape! Tracks that did not make "Section One", but were still good enough to use. Released in conjunction with: PnT WorldWyde, DJ Doubledown & The Come Up Show (thecomeupshow.com)

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released June 22, 2012

Lyrics: N. Latella
Production by: PnT WorldWyde,
Tracked, Mixed & Mastered by: Fresh Kils
Hosted by: Chedo of The Come Up Show
All Cuts by: DJ Doubledown

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Ngajuana has built a solid reputation for being reliable, consistent and focused. Ngajuana won the 2013 Jack Richardson Music Award for Hip-Hop, as well as the 2013 CHRW Fan-Favourite Album of the Year Award. Ngajuana (with Madhattr) continues to prep his biggest project to date, "Sonic Therapy 2: Paintings In Braille". ... more

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Track Name: Welcome to the Show
Yo, I spit flames like a lizard of lore, a wizard with words,
Sharper than your scissors and saws,
The flow’s nuts like, cashews just diced,
My only ambition is to crush mics, just right, man, listen,
I’m bout to expand and let the tunes span Britain,
Show ‘em all how to make music with the band missing,
Its travelling music, you could call it tram spitting,
Transmitting to you all these thoughts that I have hand-written,
Not a fan in stands sitting, as the man rippin it,
So hot he melts the very mic his hand gripping,
Fangs dripping, he emits the slang slick, he’s dangerous,
And at this very moment, he knows none can hang with him,
He’s all alone, in a zone, that’s all his own,
He can’t believe how he’s changed, or how he’s grown,
I’ma beast, I’m an animal, uh,
Off the leash, at the least I’m intangible,
But when I impact beats, I’m a cannonball,
Just another good look, coming outta Canada,
I spit silk, speak smooth heat usually,
Truthfully, I’m the dude to beat, tell me who’d whip me,
Follow me; I’m the dude with the doob with me,
You can get a hit too; now tell me who’s with me,
The fried piper, perpetually high writer,
Always brighter, cause I’ve never been separate from my lighter,
And it’s known that I’m fueled by weed, because I’m cool indeed
So puff trees; and you’ll rule like me, I’m saying
If it’s high time, it is my time, it is high time it was my time, if you missed it,
If it’s high time, it is my time, it is high time it was my time, uh,

Blaze up, Blaze uuup, y’all,
Welcome to the show, Welcome to the show,
Hello, Hello; uh, it’s nice to meet ya,
Welcome to the show, welcome to the show,
It’s nice to meet ya, yup; It’s nice to meet ya,
Welcome to the show, welcome to the show,
Blaze up, Blaze uuup, y’all,
Welcome to the show, Welcome to the show..
Blaze up, Blaze uuup, y’all,
It’s nice to meet ya, welcome to the show, welcome to the show…
Track Name: Out the Door [Ft. Sunspot Jonz]
I’m walking out the door and I’m never coming back again,
No I’m never coming back again, (time for you to let me go)
Never coming back again, no I’m never coming back again,
She said, “I don’t gotta take this, all I gotta do is escape this, now”
“I don’t wanna face this, just look at how swollen my face is, wow”

It really happens, dudes are really snapping,
On our women, trying treat ‘em like they captives, uh,
Shackles emotional, many won’t ever see a fist,
But still relate and know exactly what a beating is,
Tired all the time, working after work’s done,
Con-stant verbal abuse and words hurt, son,
Worse, her son, witness to his role-model’s,
Whole model, worsens and that could be the worst one,
But she stays, and the play, replays,
Son just watches and fosters a deep rage,
It don’t even, it won’t even matter what he say,
So he does everything he can do, he prays,
Years later and he scraps his wife,
Gets heated and he slaps his wife like he’s bred,
Uh, but his wife ain’t his mom, never will be,
Hand on the door, she turns and she says....

You ain’t your dad and, I ain’t your mom and,
You were wrong and, now I’m gone, gone
You ain’t your dad and, I ain’t your mom and,
You were wrong and, now I’m, now I’m...

I’m walking out the door and I’m never coming back again,
No I’m never coming back again, (time for you to let me go)
Never coming back again, no I’m never coming back again,
She said, “I don’t gotta take this, all I gotta do is escape this, now”
“I don’t wanna face this, just look at how swollen my face is, wow”

(Feature Verse)

I’m walking out the door and I’m never coming back again,
No I’m never coming back again, (time for you to let me go)
Never coming back again, no I’m never coming back again,
She said, “I don’t gotta take this, all I gotta do is escape this, now”
“I don’t wanna face this, just look at how swollen my face is, wow”
Track Name: Atari
Sometimes I need a fucking second to just light up,
So could you leave me alone? Lemme get in my zone,
Gimme a second, just a second lemme light up,
And could you leave me alone? Lemme get in my zone,
Lemme get in my, zone, zone, I need to get in my, zone, zone,
So lemme get in my, zone, zone, I need to get in my, zone, zone, so lemme light up.

So much is happening so fast a nigga’s brain is numb,
Starting to think that rap’s something I could famous from,
But what’s the odds; of a really odd fitting,
Nigga making millies off spitting raps that are often sad?
I’m just a poet, but I never even knew it,
Til I really listened to it, and discovered I was lost in rap,
Now people like the shit I say and it’s a lot of pressure,
Cause what I think has to be fresh and if I’m writing fresher,
So insecure, this game we play, and so I must be better,
My children need to eat, that means I gotta get the cheddar,
Never cared, never will, what people think of me,
Atari in an apple world, it don’t even sync with me,
If everything is up, then I’m down,
If everything is down, then I’m up, so maybe I’m just nuts,
But everything seems to even up, when I puff,
So when it’s all enough and I’m fed up....

Sometimes I need a second to just light up,
So could you leave me alone? Lemme get in my zone,
Gimme a second, just a second lemme light up,
And could you leave me alone? Lemme get in my zone,
Lemme get in my, zone, zone, I need to get in my, zone, zone,
So lemme get in my, zone, zone, I need to get in my, zone, zone, so lemme light up.

So damn unique, c’est magnifique, but still I’m fuckin stressed,
Give it all I got in all I do, but I got nothing left,
Depressed and pessimistic, but I’m blessed and gifted,
Now does that make me ungrateful? Well, by definition,
But it’s been, deposition after deposition with no recognition,
Wheels spinning, same position, life passing by,
But I’m dope, most say, much more so than the rest,
So I’m so frustrated I just stay getting high,
Trying to quell the frustration, trying to block the pain,
I self prescribe, so now y’all know my doctor’s name,
Paging Dr. Me, could you please doctor me, possibly?
Talk to me and help put an end to this monotony?
Cause what has any of it ever gotten me?
I’m just trying to be what I am, never what I’m told I ought to be,
Deep thinker, unlike most I do it audibly,
Everything just got to me and now
(Hook)
Track Name: Nothing Left 2 See
Uh, this relationship is killing me,
But still I’m trying to cope, to the best of my ability,
You’re strippin’ me, down; I never thought I’d get so low,
But now, I think it’s best, I start to think that I am best solo,
Don’t need this hurt, don’t want this pain inside my chest no more,
You’re stunting me; I just don’t see why you won’t let me grow,
I try to; try to give you everything I got, but you,
Just lie and lie to me and lady, I am not a fool,
So now I think I’m just as fucked as I can be and our motto can be “Nothing Left to See”
Cause there’s nothing left of me and I’m thinking that there never was of you,
And I am sorry, truly sorry but it’s true,
Tell me, what am I to do?
You’re hollow and you’re hollowing me too,
I just can’t swallow it; I bottled it til all of it just blew,
And still I follow, not abusive, but I hit you everyday,
I hate to love you, baby, what more can I say? Uh…

Tell me what am I supposed to do?
And who am I supposed to be?
You’ll strip me down completely,
Until there’s nothing left of me,
NOTHING! Nothing left to see,
NOTHING! Nothing’s left of me,
NOTHING! Nothing left to see,
NOTHING! Nothing’s left of me.

Could be your enemy the way you keep me close,
I swear, you’ll be the end of me; you always keep me choked,
Still I never say it to you, my emotions been cloaked,
Ain’t been high off of you, since the roaches been smoked,
Girl, I thought we’d be together forever, look how that turned out,
With me living my term with earned doubts and a turned mouth,
Burned out, wishing that I knew how to fix one,
Problem outta six-hun, starting with addiction,
Lips, tongue licks numb, lady, help me get dumb,
Climb high, skip rungs, got some room in this lung,
Round and round we go again, I’m doing you, you’re doing me,
I swore that I was done with you, but you said you weren’t through with me,
And so, I remain chained, unable to lane change,
Mainframe overloaded, struggling to maintain,
In, sane, sane, in me they are the same,
Indeed and with that, can I please get the refrain?

(Hook X3)
Track Name: The Disconnect
{So I drink and I Smoke and I ask if you’re ever around} X2
[Hook]
I been a sinner, known some losers, never really been a winner,
Winter cold inside myself, I’m always told that I need help,
I used to ask, but no one answered me, eventually I quit,
I used to look for you and hope, but now it’s clear to me you split,
And if you heard me, you ignored me, so I’m warring with my faith,
But if I’m wrong, then you’ll forgive, so forgive me for playing safe,
But I ain’t putting down this glass unless it’s empty, just to fill it up,
And still I smoke and still I puff, kills pain, but it don’t kill enough,
The more I do, the more I need, the less I’m high, the more I see,
And I can’t look; cause it feels like the things I love were torn from me,
And what we are is what we are born to be,
Can’t fight my nature, not without someone stronger to corner me,
So maybe I been praying subconsciously, everyday,
Hoping you’ll inspire me to find a better day,
A better way to live my life but if you’re here, then what you waiting for?
You’re supposed to be a saviour, what you saving all the saving for?

I swear I mean no disrespect, I just feel a disconnect,
Hate to say I’m Godless, I’m just guarded, I guess,
And if I’m wrong I’ll be sorry, but not right now,
If I’m wrong I’ll be sorry, but not right now.

Cause I don’t really get it, maybe I don’t need to,
But you ain’t ever here when I need you, need you,
And I’ve been told you’re there, even when nobody sees you,
But you ain’t ever here when I need you, need you,
So I don’t really get it, maybe I don’t need to,
But lately I been feeling I don’t need you, need you,
Nope, I don’t need you, need you, I don’t need you, need you.

Uh, I get why other people do,
Wish I just believed and belief in you would see me through,
But that ain’t my experience; I’ve walked a different trail,
Had my ear ripped off, seen a buddy shot, seen a bloody lot,
Pops told me how I feel is natural, I questioned him at length,
He said that’s critical thinking, son, He gave that to you,
To use, to see what’s fact to you bemused, and smiling at my youth,
He told me ‘find your truth’ and turned me back to you, so back to you,
I’m not sure what I know now; I just know I don’t know how,
To follow something blindly, it’s too grimy in my locale,
So many people slimy on this tiny little globe now,
That if you intervened, it’d be timely for it to go down,
The logic in me says you’re just a fairy tale, comfort food,
Nothing good comes from you; I’ve long been done with you,
But something in me says to hedge my bets and just fence–sit,
Cause something blessed me with my family and my friendships.
Track Name: Sad, But Normal
(Hook)

A bunch of dollars, but no father and no pot to piss in,
Wanders the projects forgotten, with a forgotten mission,
He hears em talking, but they ain’t talking, they proper whispering,
Ever since he caught a whipping, chopping whip, he’s poppin Ritalin,
Day dreams turn to nightmares, when no night’s there,
Every waking moment is torture, demons don’t fight fair,
You closet skeletons, shrink em, his he embellishes,
They, they walk all over him, this, it seems, he relishes,
He - thinks that he’s dirt, could be thinks he deserves it,
Thinks he couldn’t be much more than what he’s serving,
These cocaine fiends, chopping cocaine dreams,
Robbing kids of the parents, sisters, bro’s they need,
Long as ice selling, he’ll be ice cold indeed,
Part-time pimp, killed flowers, sold they seeds, uh,
Dirty as dirty gets, ain’t even thirty yet,
And it’s approaching fifteen years working with Percocet.

He don’t know what he’s doing,
I’m, not sure just what he’s done,
You turned out all the lights, lights,
Congratulations! You’ve just killed someone’s son.
Quick as pop, pop, run awayyy,
Pop, pop, pop, pop, pop, pop, run awayyy
Pop, pop, pop, pop, pop, pop, run awayyy

A lack of morals, too much rye and a Desert Eagle,
A quick temper, one argument, a dozen people,
Two magazines, one dude, two chicks dropped,
Two more nicked and a whole bunch of missed shots,
Only one that dies is the dude, our boy’s a killer now,
But he ain’t still around to see it, hell no, he ain’t mill around,
Pop, pop, run away, someone lost a son today,
Fuck underground, he’s underworld, the transformation’s underway,
There’s no turning back now,
It’s so dark when your soul’s dark, on a sunny day you see a blackout,
Swears he’s never going back and who could blame him?
If he did, there’s a good chance he’s never coming back out,
-Quick as nothing, everyone in this picture is suffering,
But no one more than the fam of the dude who did nothing,
And lost his life to a dude who’ll never see justice,
Because he’d rather get shot, than ever get busted.
Track Name: Trying to Be a Star
I’m stuck in this prison and need a conjugal visit,
Sometimes it is what it is, but sometimes, sometimes it just isn’t,
Sometimes you suffer way too much and wear the weight of decisions,
You didn’t make or had to make because the way was just hidden,
Sometimes it’s easier to stay where you’re sitting, that’s what I’m at now,
Can’t remember how it got this way, or when I sat down,
Backed down, changed my focus, fuck it I’m back now,
Doing what I’m s’posed to do…

I’m trying to be a star,
I’m trying to light up the dark,
I’m trying to rep my city,
Trying to make my mark as a star,
I dunno if I’ll get that high,
But I; won’t, can’t know that unless I try to be a star,
No I dunno if I’ll get that high,
But I; won’t, can’t know that unless I try to,
Be the dude with the dues paid, dudes pay homage to,
Cooler than Kool-Aid and brighter than a comet too.

Can’t stop or I’ll die, like a shark,
I’ll adapt, I’m adept; I’m a dart in the dark,
I’m alone though, close to crazy, like a stone’s throw,
Broke as a joke, wanna make it on my own so I’m,
Struggling to come up, I’ve got insane skills,
But my name kills promo, so the game’s on slow-mo,
And the fame’s on pause, I wonder will I get it?
When I know the only answer is, I won’t the way I’m headed,
Written four hundred songs, haven’t blown, not blowing,
But, I’m getting dough; just it’s not enough to stop owing,
Wonder where am I going? When will I arrive?
Would I know it if I got there, can I win while I’m alive?
So much strife, all I do is strive, all I do is I,
Gotta get the hang of takeoffs, then all I’ll do is fly,
Til then, all I’ll do is flow, all I do is grow,
All I’ll do is grind; trying to find the glow

I’m trying to be a star,
I’m trying to light up the dark,
I’m trying to rep my city,
Trying to make my mark as a star,
I dunno if I’ll get that high,
But I; won’t, can’t know that unless I try to be a star,
No I dunno if I’ll get that high,
But I; won’t, can’t know that unless I try to,
Be the dude with the dues paid, dudes pay homage to,
Cooler than Kool-Aid and brighter than a comet too.


I don’t want to live down here, if I know, I can’t fly awayyy, o-oh
Got so many thoughts, but I really don’t know what to sayyy, no-o,
I don’t want to live down here, if I know, I can’t fly awayyy, o-oh
Got so many thoughts, but I really don’t know what to sayyy, no-o

I’m trying to blaze a path, to see my city run,
I been a Lo-City legend, I have had my fun,
It’s time to spread my wings; fly up next to the sun,
Learn a few things and shine brighter than it’s ever done,
Cause I am never blank, should I say never nil?
I feel I’m always sick, I am forever ill,
Done this shit forever, but I feel I’m getting better still,
Think theycanbeatme, never could and never, ever, ever will,
I am just obsessive and in possession of better skills,
They are just contestants, I’m incandescent; the rest are swill,
- Gimme a record deal and let me light it up,
Cause I could use the dough, my pockets light as fuck,
Cause I abuse the dro, I know, I know, I might go nuts,
But I think I’d be worse without and trust me being psycho sucks,
I’m trying to be a lot of things, but perfect isn’t one of them,
I truly think my purpose lies in sonning them…

I’m trying to be a star,
I’m trying to light up the dark,
I’m trying to rep my city,
Trying to make my mark as a star,
I dunno if I’ll get that high,
But I; won’t, can’t know that unless I try to be a star,
No I dunno if I’ll get that high,
But I; won’t, can’t know that unless I try to,
Be the dude with the dues paid, dudes pay homage to,
Cooler than Kool-Aid and brighter than a comet too.
Track Name: I See Daylight
(hook)

My family’s starving; the best is all behind us,
And the only way that we’re alive is other people’s kindness,
There’s many others like us, but this is how the times is,
Cause many people here could help, but choose to live in blindness,
I wanna go school, but, rebels took the school bus,
And this is nothing new, but, walking with no shoes sucks,
I’m from a place where, at nine, they hand nines,
To kids, who; by ten have all learned to plant mines,
Sick and sadistic, welcome to the district,
Here you’ll find the losers and the killers and the misfits,
Never heard of Santa Claus, never seen a Christmas,
Never had a birthday, made a lot of wishes,
None of em have come true, it don’t make me confused,
Though, cause I’ve never really known it could be different,
I’ve heard a million voices scream “There’s nothing in the kitchen”,
And this is how I know nobody’s listening...

I don’t know how long it’s been,
Since I been up, I wanna win,
But life just chokes me, hold me down,
Keeps my feet stuck to the ground, I
Don’t know how long it’s been,
Since I been up, I wanna win,
But life just chokes me, holds me down,
Holds me down...
Still I grind, still I’m trying to persevere,
Sometimes I, feel like I’m, the only person near,
It used to be so dark, but now the way is clear,
I see daylight, I see daylight.

I’m getting older; I could become a soldier,
I’m twelve now and every year, winter’s getting colder,
My building’s got no windows, neither does it doors,
Neither does it walls, neither does it floors, need I tell you more?
Okay, Mother’s pregnant, Father died at war,
Brother’s lame, Uncle came and sold my sister as a whore,
I get spat on by the upper class; I don’t know what’s up with that,
Corn and lima beans for meals, suffering this succotash,
Every single day’s the same, not what you’d consider plain,
But this is all I’ve ever known, I don’t even hope it change,
No-one I know ever cries, not even when someone dies,
Frozen hearts just freeze the tears before they ever reach our eyes,
Tragedy is commonplace, savagery is etiquette,
Casualties are casually accepted and better yet,
The rich gave us ‘The doomed’ as our epithet,
The government ignores us, some abhor us and the rest forget.
(Bridge)

Uh, and my mother used to say,
That the darkest dark’s forever been nothing to the day,
Told me not to cry, told me crying doesn’t help,
‘Cause the dead can’t hear it, you’re just crying to yourself,
Uh, and my mother used to say,
That the darkest dark’s forever been nothing to the day,
Told me not to cry, told me crying doesn’t help,
‘Cause the dead can’t hear it, you’re just crying to yourself,

I don’t know how long it’s been,
Since I been up, I wanna win,
But life just chokes me, hold me down,
Keeps my feet stuck to the ground, I
Don’t know how long it’s been,
Since I been up, I wanna win,
But life just chokes me, holds me down,
Holds me down...
Still I grind, still I’m trying to persevere,
Sometimes I, feel like I’m, the only person near,
It used to be so dark, but now the way is clear,
I see daylight, I see daylight.

It’s been a year since I joined the rebels,
Only six months in and they gave me medals,
‘Bout a month ago, I thought that I had maybe settled,
And then I killed a child and became a baby Devil,
And ever since, I’ve been waiting for my chance to leave,
I’ve had a chance to see, things you wish you can’t believe,
And if my mother saw me now, she’d say “this can’t be you”,
Good thing she’s dead, because I’d have to say I can’t agree,
I’m next on watch though, soon as they sleep, I’m bout to vanish,
I’m out and doubt they’ll catch me, with six hours advantage,
I’m headed for sea, better I leave; it’s time to go away,
A nothing, turned soldier, turned killer, turned stowaway,
Jump aboard a cargo ship, next: The United States,
Can’t believe it’s working out, thinking that I’m finally safe,
Bout to get a blank slate, finally I can see the light,
As long as I don’t get caught, I think that I’ma be alright

Hook
Track Name: Notice Me
My story’s triumph over tragedy, could be motivational,
Probably could be movie shit, but first I need to make it, though,
Maybe if I talk a little louder, I can make it so,
And make it so, my naked soul is laid out and you say it’s dope,
Hopeful, yet I hate to hope, bet you can relate to that,
Keep the world at arm’s length, prolly where it’s safest at,
Prolly need to take a risk, got nowhere breaking my back,
Might just need a break from this, not much more to say than that,
Can’t stop when I want to though, couldn’t if I had to, either,
Even if I had to have a breather, I’m an addict, neither,
Capable of stopping, nor is there another option,
So, ever since my adoption, I’m living the life I’m locked in,
I’m walking the road I’m walking and I’ve seen a couple dead ends,
Lost a couple friends, there’s a reason I’m still here talking,
And I dunno what it is; cause nothing I’ve ever done,
Has ever really been much, but still I feel like I’m awesome.

Still I’m screaming notice me, cause if they noticed me,
They’d marvel how it flows from me, poetry,
And every time they heard me, they would know it’s me,
And they would listen closely, as it flow’s free, cause it’s poetry. (X2)

That ain’t the way it’s turning out; no-one’s listening,
And the flame inside me’s burning out, I’m growing listless,
Need my luck to do a turnabout, this life is vicious,
And that’s something we all learn about, at one time or another,
Need to be as hard living is,
While I’m wrestling the depression that I’m living with,
I got this anger, this aggression and it weighs me down,
I think I’m slipping, thinking I’m falling, what can save me now?
I don’t really know; but maybe I just need to love more,
Problem with that, the realist in me says “what’s love for?”
You got responsibilities and you got dream states,
Some stay at home to watch the kids, but others dream chase, I try to do both,
But you can’t have the cake and eat it too,
Certain responsibilities you gotta see through, is that see through?
Lemme put it this way, kids gotta eat food,
And no one likes a rapper who can only ever speak truth, so...

Still I’m screaming notice me, cause if they noticed me,
They’d marvel how it flows from me, poetry,
And every time they heard me, they would know it’s me,
And they would listen closely, as it flow’s free, cause it’s poetry. (X2)
Track Name: One More Kiss
Just when I’m ‘bout to snap, that’s when I call her back,
Last second shot in the dark, my heart,
Can’t take it when we’re apart, nothing else cures the pain,
I need her under my skin, pumpin’ through my veins,
Addict? Yes! Always have to have it,
I can’t even half my habit, with her gone I’m a fuckin mess,
-uh, breaking down, shaking with the fucking sweats,
Dear Lord, take me now, lemme know there’s nothing next,
I don’t wanna face the days, knowing that I gave away,
Everything I had, for her, just for her to hate to stay,
And I hate to say; hate, but I hate the way,
She don’t need me, I need her, I just stay her slave,
Traded in my shackles, for some pinprick pains,
Blood in thin drips, stains, and a thin, sick frame,
I can’t win this game, but I can’t quit it,
I get hooked back in, every time I hit it so...

Everything’s falling, it’s falling; it’s falling,
And death has been calling, it’s calling, it’s calling my name,
Screaming out, dreams in doubt,
Heart is dead, I’m fiending out,
One more fix: just one more fix,
Gimme one more kiss, baby one more kiss,
Cause I can’t, I can’t let you go,
No, I won’t, I won’t let you go, no...

Lying in an alley, just a skeleton of me,
Stuck alone with my memories, my skeletons and me,
Slow dancing, so gorgeous, so handsome, so beautiful,
Some want to be reborn, I want my funereal,
Stay with me, stay with me, I can’t just let you go,
Need you, I need you, I need to just let you know,
-uh, the good times ain’t so good without you,
At least, that’s the way I see it, so how could I doubt you?
Tracing all my last steps, back to where we last met,
Knowing just to find you, I would give up every asset,
Hasn’t come to that yet, this might be the time though,
Cause if I’m hand in hand with you, I’ll smile as I’m dying slow,
Screaming out your names, tears streaming down my cheeks,
Can’t admit defeats, even sick and weak, its world’s fault,
-I don’t even know what all my problem’s are,
I just know my world is falling and it’s falling hard,
Used to have a family once, once upon another life,
I ain’t give em nothing nice, fuck my kid; fuck my wife,
Someone did, then she left, I can’t even blame her for it,
Lamer for it, maybe, I don’t care, it’s just the same old story.


Everything’s falling, it’s falling; it’s falling,
And death has been calling, it’s calling, it’s calling my name,
Screaming out, dreams in doubt,
Heart is dead, I’m fiending out,
One more fix: just one more fix,
Gimme one more kiss, baby one more kiss,
Cause I can’t, I can’t let you go,
No, I won’t, I won’t let you go, no...
Track Name: And So I Killed Him
She don’t love you, cause you love her like you hate her,
It’s heartbreak, but lovers turn to haters everyday; and they part ways,
Wounds close over, the scars stay, you live and learn,
Love don’t come easy, there’s ups, downs and twists and turns,
But if it’s time to go, it’s time to go,
Ain’t nobody happy here, so what is it you’re dying to be trying to hold?
Nothing; you clutch a mess, are you fucking deaf?
I think it’s time you did the right thing and up and left,
Cause she won’t cry if you’re gone,
Life will go on; this woman ain’t your wife or your mom,
This woman ain’t your property, so you should probably,
Disappear, or you might disappear possibly,
Its peace now but I’ll catch you on the rebound,
She’s done crying, she’s with me now,
She’s done trying, cause she gave you her best shot,
So try to stop us leaving, you best not, cause, I’ll. Make. Sure.

{I’ll make sure,} she won’t cry, anymore, anymore,
Cause you can’t, make her smile, anymore, anymore,
Anymore, sorry, but it’s peace now, so I’ll catch you on the rebound,
I guess I’ll catch you on the rebound, (I guess I’ll catch you on the rebound)

It’s your fault turned my good luck,
You can’t blame it on me, just because you suck,
It’s too easy, you’re better off to look in a mirror,
Cause I can guarantee you don’t find what you’re looking for here,
This ain’t an option; she is not a hostage,
No negotiations are taking place, just shit-talking,
Between one dude and the dude with his ex-chick,
Going down next to the car where his ex sits,
Next it’s some sick shit fit for Netflicks,
He goes inside, gets a piece, then he exits,
Starts letting rounds fly, guess who gets hit,
Two through the chest, and the second a direct hit,
Straight through the heart, that’s an innocent lost,
How many women gone through it? That’s a sickening thought,
I never got to say goodbye, but neither did she,
That was some shit I never needed to see, and so I killed him.